badan tetibe menggila pagi tadi sebab dah kesuntukan waktu menyiapkan segala-galanya. memerlukan teman tetapi bila ada orang di sisi, rasa nak bersendiri. tetapi bila bersendiri pula, terasa sunyi dalam hati dan rasa nak nangis je puas-puas.

... I NEED to pull myself together. why am I period at this critical stage of nearly getting myself going crazy. why? why keep pushing me left and right? like I need to be a hypocrite just to please others? why? I'm assertive. I state my opinions clearly and honestly but sometimes I just couldn't get the words through just because I have to consider certain things of importance. let them be critical of me. they don't know me. they only want to get to know me after they knew my background. even if that's the case, there's always jealous people living in this world.either they're being good sincerely or just seriously sucking up.

"if you don't have anything better to say, just stay put and keep the thoughts to yourself".