I don't know why these days, people keep pushing their opinion on me. If it's wrong, it's wrong and vice versa.What makes me feel tiresome is when I need to keep repeating myself just to get the message clear. People can say anything they want because maybe they have different knowledge in different perspective..?

hmm.. himdeuro..

Pray for GAZA
Pray for the muslims being mistreated
Pray for ourselves, our imaan
Pray for them as well.

May Allah bless us... May Allah forgive the weakness in me, in each and every one of us. 

ALLAHUAKBAR!

tetibe je.

Kenangan hari tu.. she's humble and I totally adore her ever since the Spanar Jaya days...

p/s: dua orang yg kat kanan tu pekerja MIG but I dont know them lorh.. berebut plak nak amek gmbr dgn kak dina.. huhu..

Practicing

I really need to brush up my writing. In Malay AND English. Right now I'm having a writer's block. I have yet to draft up my proposal for Masters.

Well yeah.. Eventually I succumbed to the fact of having myself to further study. I know I'm being picky with things. Just because I dont want to do things out of pressure "everyone is doing it" thing.

Hmm niat kena betul.. Lillahita'ala kan?

So..Bismillahirrahmanirrahiim...

Weddings

I love seeing those happy faces. I've been to several akad nikah ceremony and the most touching moments has got to be the doa', when the groom says "aku terima nikahnya.." and when all the guest says alhamdulillah and aminkan doa' bersama.

As for myself, sooner or later..I'll be in the exact situation. May Allah grant me patience with all that is happening right now.. Mesti ada hikmahNya kan? :')

Semoga teman2 yg da berumahtangga tabah menghadapi asam garam pahit manis sebuah perkahwinan itu..semoga kekal diberkati Allah hingga ke Jannah..amiin  <3

Any healthy relationship needs a constant balance of give and take from both sides. One may be giving more at a certain time and the other at another time but when there is only one constantly giving, it cannot work since that one will burn out sooner rather than later.- somewhere.


this applies to friendship right? any relationship I guess except for family... hurmm..

AMBIVALENCE.

ok now I know how to describe "it".


hmm...

Impian Sunseeelk

eh? tetibe je nak post pasal sunseeelk la plak.. heh. anyway, semalam rasa terharu sangat3 dapat jumpa, bersalam, berlaga pipi dengan seseorang yang aku tengok atas dia (READ: look up to). nak kata idola tu tak la tapi memang suke dia sejak tengok sitcom dia dulu2. dan bertambah2 suke dengan penghijrahan diri dia.. ;)

eh sape ek sape..? (macam la org jakun nk baca blog ko rehann oi..heh) ok senanya semalam ada close event yang diadakan di Hospital An-Nur kat BBBangi ni. ade dua orang kenalanku yang bekerja di sane..(snanye 3 orang tapi yang dua ni sebab keep in close contact. meaning mcm hari2 contact la konon kalau tak seminggu sekali) so alkisahnye.. pekerja2 sane ofcos la di-invite ke close event ihya' ramadhan ni. and my friend pon dok tanye2 la kalau2 dia leh bawak member skali.. so alhamdulillah.. dapat la gak.. ^_^

so jeng jeng jeeeennngg...!
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erk sory la takde gambar untuk di post lagi sebab blom transfer ke laptop. tapi serious aku duk depan skali sebab orang lain datang lambat because of the heavy traffic. and Guest ktorg pon stuck dari Wangsa Maju(mcm tak betul je aku eja nih) so nak datang sini memang h*ll la kann... T.T

anywaaaaaaay, Guest tu pon datang la dengan 3 orang anak beliau and hubby. tapi suami duk kat luar.. anak2 je yang masuk.. (haihh punye cantik bagi hint ni ponn takleh nak teka lagi??ape daa..)



yes. itu dia. Puan Wardina Saffiyah. ya Allah memang bila nampak dia face2face, apesal la aku macam malu2 kucing. padahal ade sorang kawanku nih muke ade iras2 dia.. hehe.. time tu takde la jantung berdebar2 bagai nak gugur ke ape.. jantung rilek je.. well tengah puasa kann.. ;p  masa yang dia bagi ucapan sket2 sambil di kacau oleh anak dia si imran (dia apologise sbb lambat coz tak sangka traffic sangat la teruk. ni first time dia and famili keluar untuk berbuka..so dia tak tau keadaan..) after dia cakap sket tuh..time tu dah nak azan dah.. and bile yang nak berbuka tu..tak perasan plak dia duk bawah depan2 ktorg.. sambil salam2.. and i was like blur2 plus malu+segan ape sume.. sebab dia sangat cantik tengok depan2 walaupun umur beliau dah 30+ huhu... T.T

masa tu dah ade orang yg bergambar dengan dia.. aku hanya mampu amek gambar dia macam tu je padehal spot sgt la best line clear. heh. yela nak bagi sedikit ruang untuk beliau yang telah penat datang..dah la nak berbuka time tuh.. takkan nak kacau plak.. respect people. respect their own space please. =.="

kak Dina bagi talk after magrib which started at 8.30pm. talkshow tu sempoi je sebab emcee tu tanye2 soalan pasal perubahan diri dia, cmne dia berdepan dengan kritikan or pandangan orang lain.. and dalam banyak2 yang dia cakap tu.. benda yang aku paling terkesan ada dua senanye..

1. Baca Quran hari2 dan taddabbur(fahami) ayat2 tu sekali.
*kak Dina penah tanye Dr. Har aka dia punye naqibah usrah kalau tak silap. "Dr. Har baca al-quran hari2 ke?" and pastinye Dr. cakap iyee.. mestilah.. and kak Dina termalu sendiri and tersedar betapa membaca al-quran hari2 ni plus baca maksud sekali, dapat memperbaiki akhlak seseorang tu insyaAllah.. yelaa kalau dah ade ilmu tak amal.. maksudnye ape tu..?haa jawab la sendirik..

kak Dina pon sambung and wat statement sort of yang orang Melayu kita ni anggap Quran tu suci, mulia etc sampaikan tak terbaca and simpan buat hiasan. sedangkan sebagai seorang muslim, patutnye kitalah kena dok baca Quran hari2 sebab dalam 114 surah tu ade baAaAaanyaakkk yang Allah nak sampaikan kepada manusia untuk dijadikan bimbingan hidup.. betul tak?


2. On how the people who joined bulatan-gumbira exclusive untuk orang2 macam dia for example; stock tudung labuh, pakai stokin etc. 
*kak Dina sendiri ade usrah urban katenye yang dihadiri oleh beberapa orang selebriti yang masih tidak menutup aurat dengan sempurna tapi dia tak judge orang tu. sebab yang penting dorang ade keinginan untuk mendalami agama tu sendiri and nk join majlis ilmu pon dah syukur alhamdulillah.. yelaa dah orang tu dah pakai macam tu dah bape lame.. takkan terus expect nak pakai jubah siap purdah sekali kan? so peringatan ni untuk diri ku juga supaya menjaga adab dan pergaulan tapi dalam masa yang sama tu jangan duk judge orang itu ini and sentiasala berlapang dada dan berbaik sangka....kan?kan?kan?so mari2 kita buang2 pikir negative kat orang lain sebab jangan sebab kita bersikap macam tu.. menyebabkan orang yang dahaga ilmu ni naik menyampah nak mendalami Islam.. astaghfirullah..

oklah memang penat la kan dah lama tak bebel panjang2 (ntah2 orang skip2 bace je blog ko ni rehann..huhu xpela.. janji niat nak share tu penting)

ha sebut pasal share.. aku ade amek vid gakk talk dia semalam. tapi tula cable transfer kat umah and i wont sleep at home tonight. so probably esok nak upload and share kat fb.. k selamat berpuasa kawan2. moga Allah redha..

Assalamualaikum ;)

What is in the head
is it not in the heart?

Repetitive. Hmm.

Aturan Allah sebenarnya cantik. Sangat cantik. Walaupun dilanda kesedihan atau kekecewaan, sebenarnya semua memang dah ditentukan begitu, kan?


aku harap aku tabah. dan masih mampu kuatkan hati untuk perkara2 yang tak diketahui itu...

something you need to let out
but frustratingly can't because of an oath..

would it be so clear then to ask opinion of others or just to tame the heart and try to find some answers from within..?



moga Allah beri kekuatan untuk menempuh dugaan ini... HE is All-knowing and knows the best thing of all..even if we see it as very unfortunate.. but as time goes by, it may seem a fortune.. noone knows for sure right? =/

"If someone corrects you, and you feel offended, then You have an EGO problem." - Br. Nouman Ali Khan

 

... need to keep reminding myself this. over and over again. I guess I could get hurt but it's much easier to forgave someone than hoping that person to forgive me of my wrongdoings.. Allah is the Most Gracious and Merciful..

Have you ever..?

apparently I have.. hmm..

DarkSide

There's a place that I know
It's not pretty there and few have ever gone
If I show it to you now
Will it make you run away

Or will you stay
Even if it hurts
Even if I try to push you out
Will you return?
And remind me who I really am
Please remind me who I really am

Everybody's got a dark side
Do you love me?
Can you love mine?
Nobody's a picture perfect
But we're worth it
You know that we're worth it
Will you love me?
Even with my dark side?

Like a diamond
From black dust
It's hard to know
It can become
A few give up
So don't give up on me
Please remind me who I really am

Everybody's got a dark side
Do you love me?
Can you love mine?
Nobody's a picture perfect
But we're worth it
You know that we're worth it
Will you love me?
Even with my dark side?

Don't run away
Don't run away
Just tell me that you will stay
Promise me you will stay
Don't run away
Don't run away
Just promise me you will stay
Promise me you will stay

Will you love me? ohh
Everybody's got a dark side
Do you love me?
Can you love mine?
Nobody's a picture perfect
But we're worth it
You know that we're worth it
Will you love me?
Even with my dark side?
(Kelly Clarkson )




- my dark side that I wish it could be buried. but if you find out about it dear.. will you still love me and stay by my side..?*own monologue*

After 1 year..

Times fly so fast.. it has been 1 year since I finished my IND course and.... getting back in contact with him ;)

Within the span of 1 year, I got to do two jobs. Well my first job, after 4-5months being my mum's driver, isn't actually IND related. But it was something new. At least I got to overcome my fears and insecurities when I talk to other people. Everything was fine, no major incident. Except perhaps there was this one time, an African guy came to do scaling and he was like flirting and even asking me to marry him! urghh... it was scary and I asked the doctor to get him out from there. (tetibe selepas peristiwa tu berlaku, kat tv tengah kecoh pasal penangkapan orang2 dia kat mana ntah tak ingat.. phew..good thing I never met him again)

Ok that was just one incident. Nothing extra-ordinary after that. I'm currently at UKM right now and no I'm not doing my MA here. I guess I need to settle down (if you know what I mean*wink2*) first before I pursue my education. For now, I would love to join classes or short courses that would involve any design software and until recently, my love for crafts is coming back at me again.. hehe.. I love handmade stuffs. Whether it's a card, bags, keychains, scrapbooking.. anything to do with art then I'll just simply love it!


- terliur tengok ada orang ni buat handmade card.. adekah nak asah bakat balik nak wat handmade kad raya untuk orang?hehe.. tapi benda ni tgk mood gak.. takde mood memang tak jalan.. seni la katakan.. heh.

Menjauh.. benarkah begitu?

may Allah's peace and blessing be upon u dearies..

Saya diberitahu yang saya nampaknya semakin jauh denganNya. Mungkin. Kenapa bila dilihat dari sudut pandangan orang lain, saya macam makin dekat denganNya tetapi lain pula pandangan yang satu ini. Ianya aneh. Tanya balik diri sendiri, betul ke diri nampak dekat tapi hakikatnya jauh..? *dalam menusuk qalbu*

(ok stop being soo skema.).. erm korang penah dengar lagu Muhasabah Cinta by Edcoustic? ce tengok liriknya kejap..

Wahai... Pemilik nyawaku
Betapa lemah diriku ini
Berat ujian dariMu
Kupasrahkan semua padaMu

Tuhan... Baru ku sadar
Indah nikmat sehat itu
Tak pandai aku bersyukur
Kini kuharapkan cintaMu

Reff. :
Kata-kata cinta terucap indah
Mengalun berzikir di kidung doaku
Sakit yang kurasa biar jadi penawar dosaku
Butir-butir cinta air mataku
Teringat semua yang Kau beri untukku
Ampuni khilaf dan salah selama ini
Ya ilahi....
Muhasabah cintaku...

Tuhan... Kuatkan aku
Lindungiku dari putus asa
Jika ku harus mati
Pertemukan aku denganMu

Sakit di sini mungkin orang akan interpret as demam ka kanser ka ape2 sakit fizikal la senang citer.. tapi penah tak terpikir yg mungkin kat sini boleh diterjemahkan (i know.. my BM tunggang langgang =.=) sebagai hamba Allah yang hatinya sakit, sakit yang tenat lagi parah tapi tak disedari..? well bukan sakit hati macam putus cinta ka gado dengan besfren ka.. eh bukan bukan..

sakit bernanah hati tu bile hati kita penuh kekotoran jiwa as in sifat2 mazmumah yang akan menyerang sesiape pon tak kira rakyat biasa, orang alim, org atasan maupon bawahan. asalkan dia tu manusia, hamba Allah.. kalau tak berhati2 dan tak jaga elok2 memang boleh rosak, rosak sume amal baik kita. ntah2 Allah tak tengok langsung kebaikan yang kita buat tu sebab penyakit2 hati yang bermaharajalela ni.. penyakit hati macam riya', sum'ah, takkabur etc.. Allah.. naudzubillah.. moga Allah tetapkan diri, tetapkan iman dalam diri dan jauhkan kita semua dari penyakit2 hati nih dan dari gangguan syaitonirrajiimm.. amiin..

ok balik pada point asal.. kadang tu memangla manusia nih.. selalu kena ingatkan. termasuk jugala si penulis blog ni.. takde sape yang sempurna. tapi marilah kita sama2 perbaiki diri, muhasabah diri, muhasabah cinta dan kasih kita kepadaNya.

a true muslim is never alone, because Allah is with them -(i dont know who quoted this but sis Asma' always say it once in a while ^^)

p/s: Zantedeschia aethiopica.. ermm i loike~ ;)

Air Terapung

Berjalan..

Bermusafirlah..

Melihat kebesaran Tuhan yang diciptakan

Untuk mereka yang berfikir...

p/s: ada rezeki nak ber-jaulah lagi.. insyaAllah ^_^

Memorabilia

1. mementos; souvenirs.
2. matters or events worthy to be remembered; points worthy of note.



...kasihkan isteri, sampai nak dia dalam syurga. Dunia ni kejap je.. angan2 kita je (11.05.11)

...ingat, everything kita kena positive sebab tu antara sifat muslimah. Jangan sangka buruk pun.. insyaAllah takde masalah takde orang nak kacau dan tuhan pelihara. Kurangkan sifat marah dan selalu maafkan orang. Sifat tu kita buat bukan untuk orang tengok tapi semata2 redha tuhan.. setiap perbuatan ada balasan (19.06.11)

Penyakit Wahan(mencintai dunia)

Bismillahirrahman nirrahiim..

Selalunya bila kita ditimpa kesusahan seperti berpenyakit, jatuh miskin, kehilangan dan sebagainya, kita kata ni semua ujian dariNya. dan kalau kita senang samaada dari segi kewangan, harta benda, kesihatan dan yang sewaktu dengannya, seringkali kita menyangka "ini Allah memberi rahmatNya untukku, alhamdulillah".

Pernahkah saudara saudari sekalian terfikir, kalau nikmat dunia yag Allah berikan itu juga merupakan suatu ujian? Ujian yang sangat halus dan ramai yang terpedaya. astaghfirullahall'azim. Owh bukan saya nak cakap yang Allah memerdaya, eh bukan. Allah menguji. Dia mahu menguji hambaNya yang berkata dia beriman kepada Allah.

"adakah patut manusia menyangka mereka akan dibiarkan dengan hanya berkata: kami beriman. sedangkan mereka masih belum diuji dengan sebarang ujian?"

Al-ankabut:2

Jadi, ujian ni ada bermacam2. kesusahan itu ujian. kesenangan itu pun ujian juga. Kalau ada yang tak paham kenapa kesenangan itu suatu ujian, cuba kita fikir sekejap. bila kita dalam keadaan senang, rasa happy dengan apa yang ada, pada yang beringat, mereka akan selalu rasa bersyukur. SELALU. dalam ertikata lain, kesyukuran itu diungkapkan bukan dengan kata2, malah dari perbuatannya juga. dan orang2 yang saya kata terpedaya ni, Ghurur, tertipu dengan nikmat dunia bila dia makin jauh dengan Allah. ha nampak tak? sangat2 rugi orang2 yg Allah dah beri hidayah, petunjuk kepadanya, tetapi tak makin rapat dengan Rabbnya. Allah.. peringatan ni saya sangat2 tujukan pada diri sendiri sebenarnya. sebab sebagai manusia yang lemah, memang godaan dan dugaan tu banyak nak istiqomah dalam kebaikan. ampunkan hambaMu ini ya Allah.

salah silap memang dari sisi saya, yang baik semuanya daripada Allah. semoga Allah ampunkan dosa kami semua. amiin..



p/s: terkejut apa yang berlaku pagi tadi. lepas ni kena betul2 jaga pemakanan and kena berpantang dari makan pedas2. hmm..

yesterday (tajuk yg LAME tapi xde idea. hehe)

here I am still breathing, still been given the chance to become a better person, a better muslimah in His eyes insyaAllah. hijrah ke arah kebaikan boleh dilakukan bila2 masa.. janji ada daya usaha nak berubah. haih tipu la kan kalau semua orang taknak jadi baik sebab baik ni suatu fitrah. cuma dikekang oleh hawa nafsu sendiri. jadi, pandai2lah nak lawan.. hurmm tapi aku tak kata aku nih dah cukup baik sebab makhluk Tuhan yg paling sempurna sifat dan personaliti diri hanya Nabi Muhammad SAW. tapi tak salah kan nak tanamkan dalam diri, nak jadi baik dan insyaAllah bertambah baik.. ;)

alkisahnye semalam geng BaitiJannati yg dikasihi buat a lil surprise. (sorry Filzah gambar kek tu xde sbb memorycard smlm wat hal. tapi syukran jiddan for the osem cake. hehe. owh and the osem words on it. keke..will remember it) Honestly, I am truly grateful to Allah for getting me close to wonderful people around since my last big depression.heh. (not that Im saying my past friends arent wonderful, you guys are great and have a space in my heart too so dont worry ^^) need not to elaborate more as I appreciate each and everyone of you who step into my life. *lotsOfLOve*

"Therefore remember Me. I will remember you, and be grateful to me and never be ungrateful to Me"

Al-Baqarah : 152

say Alhamdulillah. Thankyou Allah ^_^

An unexpected gift from sis Asma' my dear friend. Alhamdulillah rezeki dapat buku yang 'special' ni kan?hehe ;)

sis Asma' gave it to all geng BJ (with different colors of course.) Thanks again dear~

p/s: pada yang wish, terima kasih atas ingatan. yang tak wish, terima kasih gak sebab mana la tau wish dalam doa ke kan, tetap osem! hehe.. and pada yang tak ingat, ingatan mu pada hari2 biasa pon I appreciate it as much. ^_^

Independent

Naah.. I'm not trying to talk about Independent Day here. Just trying to blog this about working and when you were a student. I mean.. when I was a student. I'm most likely to stick in my comfort zone when I was a student. well you know, sticking with the same friends through ups and down. Em its definitely not the same when you're working. Unless you're stuck with the same people everyday and need to talk to them the whole time.

hurmm..I guess it wouldn't feel so bad if I can just say Hi to random strangers. that's just me. I can only offer a smile and nothing more. well unless the other person seems to be friendly or not looked intimidating to me, then I guess there's no excuse for me to be sombong, aight?


yang penting husnudzhon Raihan. dengan semua orang. walaupun muka dia macam penyangak sekalipun. huhu..

bismillahirahmaanirahiim..

"..fastabiqul khairat.." (2:148)

..so hasten towards all that is good..

an ukhti(sister) taught me a lesson on striving to do all the good deeds lillahita'ala. for example like doing the sunah prayers, fasting, giving to the poor and many others. she said, "why didn't we grab the chance to do the good deeds, when somebody else told us about all the great benefits of doing it?do we feel pressured because it is a forced action and want to instil ikhlas in our ibadah?then force yourself to do it and pray to Allah to instil that ikhlas within you. because HE holds the heart of every mankind..and as a servant, we must obey to HIM and only HIM."

needless to say, insyaAllah I'll strive harder to do it little by little, istiqamah with my actions.

Jom berlari mendapatkan keredhaanNya, daripada masih berdiri mengharap redha manusia.. ^_^

may Allah bless you brothers and sisters.

a change.

some changes need adjusting. I just have to adapt with my new surroundings.


p/s: gaya camni ade hati nak gi blaja luar negara..? adoiyai aku ni ponn.. xpe. terus menabahkan diri. insyaAllah ada sisi positifnye....