DarkSide

There's a place that I know
It's not pretty there and few have ever gone
If I show it to you now
Will it make you run away

Or will you stay
Even if it hurts
Even if I try to push you out
Will you return?
And remind me who I really am
Please remind me who I really am

Everybody's got a dark side
Do you love me?
Can you love mine?
Nobody's a picture perfect
But we're worth it
You know that we're worth it
Will you love me?
Even with my dark side?

Like a diamond
From black dust
It's hard to know
It can become
A few give up
So don't give up on me
Please remind me who I really am

Everybody's got a dark side
Do you love me?
Can you love mine?
Nobody's a picture perfect
But we're worth it
You know that we're worth it
Will you love me?
Even with my dark side?

Don't run away
Don't run away
Just tell me that you will stay
Promise me you will stay
Don't run away
Don't run away
Just promise me you will stay
Promise me you will stay

Will you love me? ohh
Everybody's got a dark side
Do you love me?
Can you love mine?
Nobody's a picture perfect
But we're worth it
You know that we're worth it
Will you love me?
Even with my dark side?
(Kelly Clarkson )




- my dark side that I wish it could be buried. but if you find out about it dear.. will you still love me and stay by my side..?*own monologue*

After 1 year..

Times fly so fast.. it has been 1 year since I finished my IND course and.... getting back in contact with him ;)

Within the span of 1 year, I got to do two jobs. Well my first job, after 4-5months being my mum's driver, isn't actually IND related. But it was something new. At least I got to overcome my fears and insecurities when I talk to other people. Everything was fine, no major incident. Except perhaps there was this one time, an African guy came to do scaling and he was like flirting and even asking me to marry him! urghh... it was scary and I asked the doctor to get him out from there. (tetibe selepas peristiwa tu berlaku, kat tv tengah kecoh pasal penangkapan orang2 dia kat mana ntah tak ingat.. phew..good thing I never met him again)

Ok that was just one incident. Nothing extra-ordinary after that. I'm currently at UKM right now and no I'm not doing my MA here. I guess I need to settle down (if you know what I mean*wink2*) first before I pursue my education. For now, I would love to join classes or short courses that would involve any design software and until recently, my love for crafts is coming back at me again.. hehe.. I love handmade stuffs. Whether it's a card, bags, keychains, scrapbooking.. anything to do with art then I'll just simply love it!


- terliur tengok ada orang ni buat handmade card.. adekah nak asah bakat balik nak wat handmade kad raya untuk orang?hehe.. tapi benda ni tgk mood gak.. takde mood memang tak jalan.. seni la katakan.. heh.

Menjauh.. benarkah begitu?

may Allah's peace and blessing be upon u dearies..

Saya diberitahu yang saya nampaknya semakin jauh denganNya. Mungkin. Kenapa bila dilihat dari sudut pandangan orang lain, saya macam makin dekat denganNya tetapi lain pula pandangan yang satu ini. Ianya aneh. Tanya balik diri sendiri, betul ke diri nampak dekat tapi hakikatnya jauh..? *dalam menusuk qalbu*

(ok stop being soo skema.).. erm korang penah dengar lagu Muhasabah Cinta by Edcoustic? ce tengok liriknya kejap..

Wahai... Pemilik nyawaku
Betapa lemah diriku ini
Berat ujian dariMu
Kupasrahkan semua padaMu

Tuhan... Baru ku sadar
Indah nikmat sehat itu
Tak pandai aku bersyukur
Kini kuharapkan cintaMu

Reff. :
Kata-kata cinta terucap indah
Mengalun berzikir di kidung doaku
Sakit yang kurasa biar jadi penawar dosaku
Butir-butir cinta air mataku
Teringat semua yang Kau beri untukku
Ampuni khilaf dan salah selama ini
Ya ilahi....
Muhasabah cintaku...

Tuhan... Kuatkan aku
Lindungiku dari putus asa
Jika ku harus mati
Pertemukan aku denganMu

Sakit di sini mungkin orang akan interpret as demam ka kanser ka ape2 sakit fizikal la senang citer.. tapi penah tak terpikir yg mungkin kat sini boleh diterjemahkan (i know.. my BM tunggang langgang =.=) sebagai hamba Allah yang hatinya sakit, sakit yang tenat lagi parah tapi tak disedari..? well bukan sakit hati macam putus cinta ka gado dengan besfren ka.. eh bukan bukan..

sakit bernanah hati tu bile hati kita penuh kekotoran jiwa as in sifat2 mazmumah yang akan menyerang sesiape pon tak kira rakyat biasa, orang alim, org atasan maupon bawahan. asalkan dia tu manusia, hamba Allah.. kalau tak berhati2 dan tak jaga elok2 memang boleh rosak, rosak sume amal baik kita. ntah2 Allah tak tengok langsung kebaikan yang kita buat tu sebab penyakit2 hati yang bermaharajalela ni.. penyakit hati macam riya', sum'ah, takkabur etc.. Allah.. naudzubillah.. moga Allah tetapkan diri, tetapkan iman dalam diri dan jauhkan kita semua dari penyakit2 hati nih dan dari gangguan syaitonirrajiimm.. amiin..

ok balik pada point asal.. kadang tu memangla manusia nih.. selalu kena ingatkan. termasuk jugala si penulis blog ni.. takde sape yang sempurna. tapi marilah kita sama2 perbaiki diri, muhasabah diri, muhasabah cinta dan kasih kita kepadaNya.

a true muslim is never alone, because Allah is with them -(i dont know who quoted this but sis Asma' always say it once in a while ^^)

p/s: Zantedeschia aethiopica.. ermm i loike~ ;)

Air Terapung

Berjalan..

Bermusafirlah..

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Untuk mereka yang berfikir...

p/s: ada rezeki nak ber-jaulah lagi.. insyaAllah ^_^

Memorabilia

1. mementos; souvenirs.
2. matters or events worthy to be remembered; points worthy of note.



...kasihkan isteri, sampai nak dia dalam syurga. Dunia ni kejap je.. angan2 kita je (11.05.11)

...ingat, everything kita kena positive sebab tu antara sifat muslimah. Jangan sangka buruk pun.. insyaAllah takde masalah takde orang nak kacau dan tuhan pelihara. Kurangkan sifat marah dan selalu maafkan orang. Sifat tu kita buat bukan untuk orang tengok tapi semata2 redha tuhan.. setiap perbuatan ada balasan (19.06.11)